i don't know why sometimes randomly my tears falls no matter when is it.
In my past life this never happens.
Everything and you are still in my mind, i misses you, our past and everything that we have done together.
Giving myself false hope that everything will be back one day and also washing away those false hope in my mind as i know the chances are low again and again.
i know the possiblility of getting everything back are low or may never happen again,
but i can't stop myself having those misses.
Everynight i was unable to sleep. This is the first time in my life i have such a unusual feeling.
i am really forcing myself really hard, but i couldn't when the misses comes.
i am sorry that i loves you.
Unable to cherish you is my biggest regret that i can never get over.
The things are in my mind all these while, there are more that i can't say in a shot.
When you loves someone you can't be with him/her,
or even try to get her back when you are afraid of being rejected,
just plainly staying beside her with those misses all around unable to say out
so that he/she will be happier how hard can this be..
Is this really a right thing to do/the only thing i can do ? It is not this simple anyway.
My greatest hope, greatest worries, falls and rise are all you. Realising everything may be too late now, or maybe is just a matter of time for another chance. i try to stay awake i try to make amend i try to give in i try to give you space i try to fufil your wish i try to protect you i try to hold you tight i try to keep it sweet i try to keep you accompany i try to be there i try to remember what you told i try to low down my pride i try to hold my misses i try to get you back i try to fly away what ever you want, everything i can try for you. If i can't take you to where ever i am, you are always in my mind where ever i am.
Bear this in mind, i am always here when you need me.
Be fine, be alright and live happily.
